Easter and what it meant to me this year.

Hi everyone, 

I know it's been forever ago since I wrote but today being Easter Sunday I figured I'd write a little something. To start, this year Easter had a huge impact on me we spent the season watching the mini-series The Bible on History Channel and I words just can't say how much it affected me. I've read the Bible so many times but seeing it that way was huge. I cried after almost every episode especially tonight's episode which depicted the Crusifixion and the Ressurection and Assessencion. Forgive my spelling. A few years ago I wouldn't have even dreamt of watching this stuff or even considering that Christ and God were real. I can say now that in the past year especially these past few months my faith has returned to me tenfold. I have seen God work in mysterious ways these past few months and years. I must say I got my true ah ha moment at Children's with my daughter in November when she was a mere two months old and I was listening to Ramstein and suddenly it hit me why in heck was i listening to such negative stuff when i was in a place where positive energy needed to flow. (my family knows this story so you guys can disregard this part of it lol). It was then that i realised God was speaking to me and I needed to listen. My little girl saved my life and my soul. I know now what I didn't know a few years ago that God is real and that he does truly bless those in need and well we just need to listen really hard or well he'll give us a good kick in the butt to get us to listen. To close, I just want to say THANK YOU GOD FOR HELPING MY FAITH RETURN!!! God bless everyone who reads this. Until next time. 

Brandy

Pregnancy Number 2

Hey all, 

A while ago I had found out I was pregnant now I am 37 weeks and almost done with the pregnancy. I am having a little girl and I'm so excited about it. I do have my worries but my dr. assures me everything is fine and she is positioned the way she's supposed to be for delivery. I am fully effaced and really ready to have her. I found my biological father and family and they're all excited that I'm having a baby and that TJ is here already. He brings them so much joy. Anyways, there is so much I want to say but I can't say it just now as I'm very emotional right now and could just start to cry at any moment, hormones are so much fun lol. Anyways, there are a lot of things I'm going through and a lot on my mind it's hard to voice them without sounding like I'm repeating myself which drives my family nuts. I'm staying as calm as I can TJ is so clingy lately he knows mommy's going through something big it's cute but at the same time really irritating. Now, for the reason I am even writing this. I am wondering why God blessed me with another child when my sister wives want more children more than anything in the world and unfortunately, they aren't able to have any right now. It saddens me that they try so hard and nothing comes of it. I am glad I got blessed with another child I try not to question anything God does but this is one thing I'm wondering about. If any of my readers have any ideas or advice please feel free to leave a comment or two. That's all for now. More later. 

B.

Continuing my BDSM/Poly Blog

Hey All,

This is to continue my last post. The whole reason BDSM is legal is because of one thing it is considered a fetish. If it weren't a fetish I can just bet it would be illegal to. I had a rather crazy discussion with my mother about it and it didn't go as well as I wanted it to. I know I hurt feelings but I had been waiting to say what I said for three years. She gave me the opportunity by telling me she was moving in with her Master and his wife. Hello, sound familiar to anyone? It should because ya know what it's polygamy. Even if it's called BDSM it's still polygamy. Yes, I know it sounds exactly the same as my last post but as I said it's a continuation of the same post just what I couldn't write that evening because it didn't cross my mind until tonight. I love my poly family and it hurt that for three years my own mother condemned me and my husband and sister wives and then turns around and does it herself. We had a lenghty discussion and I am not certain she even got my point but if she did then good for her what's really annoying is even after I said all this she still cares more for her Master than she does for me we were having a civil conversation when she went quiet I asked her if she was busy and she said Master IMd me and I just had enough and said guess I'll let you go then and closed the chat. I hate that her stupid BDSM is constantly coming before me and her grandson but it's whatever she'll always be that way and I just have to deal with it. I love my mom to death but when she turns round and does this stuff it cuts me to the quick. It insults my husband and sister wives as well as our whole family. My marriage is sacred to me and my sisters and when people pull this it's nothing but hypocritical and I am so glad I got the chance to call my mom out after three years. Thanks for reading. As I said all comments good and bad are welcome.

TTFN. Ta Ta For Now.

BDSM and Polygamy. Why is one legal and the other not?

Hey me again. Disclaimer, this may piss a few people off sorry in advance.

Been a while hasn't it guess so anyway to my topic. I called this blog BDSM and Polygamy. Why is one illegal and the other not because most BDSM relationships are multiple slaves. I am in a Polygamist Marriage. The way I see it BDSM, unless Monogamous, is not much different. The only real difference is the fact that most Poly marriages have a religious ceremony a sealing or in my case a committment ceremony, though to me it is simply a marriage if not in the govt's eyes but in God's eyes. A Dom and their Subs have what's called a collaring ceremony, which in turn, is considered a committment of sorts. My lifestyle is just that, a committment to my sister wives and to my husband just as a slave is committed to his or her Dom. A Dom, unless in absolute control, such as in a Gorean relationship, has to ask his/her other subs if it is ok for them to bring another sub into the family circle. If you can't get along with a new sub why bring them in? A Poly marriage does that as well, a new wife can not be brought in without the agreed consent of the other wife or wives. My point is that even though they do have their differences a sub does freely give themselves to their Doms and I have freely given myself to Rich, Julie, and Ange. We are all committed to that person whether it's a husband or a Master/Dom. My points may not be valid but I figured I'd let my readers be the judges. I invite all comments good or bad to this and to all my posts, past, present, and future. Hope you enjoyed reading this blog tonight. Until, next time. TTFN, Ta Ta For Now.

One long day

Hey All,

Yes, I called this a long day because it seemed like the day dragged on forever for some reason might be the fact I'm in a fog because of my allergies lol. Work seemed to drag on forever we were so slow today must have been because it was warm out and everyone was out getting ice cream or grilling. I had julie's delicious meatloaf for dinner. It was yummy. (props to my sis) Anyway, I had gotten so close to telling my manager what type of lifestyle I lived because me and my friends at work were talking about it but I lost my nerve she makes me so nervous sometimes. I'm sure she'll figure it out though. So my other manager was teasing me earlier introducing us all to the newbie that started work today she's awesome I'll look forward to more shifts with her. She's all laughs and it's something we could all use in the workplace, so I was getting ice for the machine and my manager said this is brandy she enjoys her job because I was laughing with my other co-workers and I'm like yep I love my job and he laughed and said see toldja. That got the newbie to laugh so she lightened up a bit first days are so nerve-wracking, funny thing was we ended riding the bus home together and chatting like we knew each other our whole lives. I may be in what people call a forbidden relationship but hey we all are in some way or another if our parents don't approve of who we are dating or married to. -Giggles- Anyway, I am just yammering on sorry if this entry bores you all. Take care TTFN.

B

Just Another Post

Hey all,

I know it's been ages since I last wrote to you all. It's been a rough few weeks but it seems alright now. Been having issues with my losing patience with kids lately I am trying but it never seems to do any good. I always lose patience anyway, it's no wonder everyone thinks I am a bad mom. This morning I felt myself losing patience and was like yeah you two babies are going upstairs to play lemme get a bit more sleep and then we can play. It seemed to be alright for a while the babies settled and played for a bit then started to get bored so I went and got them and was fine the rest of the morning until my son kept hitting me on the head with his toys, I've got a few bruises on my cheek lol. Gotta love babies. As far as life with my poly family it seems ok now but a few weeks ago it seemed that no matter what I did I just made everyone angry. I tried my best and finally, it succeeded and everyone was alright again as alright as anyone can be crammed into a four bedroom house with five kids running around lol. Well, that's bout it aside from work and being mommy. I did meet a new friend at the bus stop and I am so excited to have a friend outside of work she's so nice and about my age she is also married with two kids around the same age as the preschoolers. I can't wait to hang with her again. That bout does it for now. TTFN my friends.

YAY I REMEMBERED MY LOGIN FINALLY!!!

Hey everyone, So yeah it's been ages since I last posted I forgot my login but finally remembered it. Here's my update, work's been goin great. I have been working a lot and it's so fun I love my job. Good folks and good food what could be better. Well, I'll tell ya, my son can now walk and he is beginning to babble things that are beginning to sound more like words he's growing up so fast. Hubby got a new job and we're all so excited for him, sucks that it's third shift though but a job's a job. Sorry not much to write but I'll come up with more i promise. Ya'll Come Back Now Ya Hear? Cheers, B

Just another update

Hey everyone,

B here again been a while since I last wrote. I been busy lately with kids and randomness haha. So here's the update. Hubby has a new job and is loving it, J has one also and she also loves it. I am also going to start working on Monday, I got a crossing guard job. It isn't much but it's better than nothing and it is rather enjoyable I get to meet a lot of interesting people. It's definitely an adrenaline rush. Trying to figure out the best way to get kids across safely and running into the street with a red stop sign and people getting impatient and revving their engines like they're close to hitting you if you don't move soon. People ugh. I turned 22 sept. 29th and boy did we have fun my dad came to visit me it was great. Hubby turned 46 sept 28th. Our youngest daughter is turning three Oct. 31st so cool we get to celebrate Halloween and a birthday at the same time gonna be double the fun. No word yet on what we are going to do for her yet though. Hubby's celebration is this weekend on account of he had to work so we are celebrating this weekend. My son is crawling and even starting to pull himself up and so is A's youngest. They both babble so talking won't be too far now. I am looking forward to it but whoa will my life change I'll be chasing them all over the place. Take care everyone. I'll keep you all updated thanks for reading.

Later, B

Our First Home Service

Hey everyone,

Well today we had our first at home service. Rich did a really good job and it was very interesting to watch him preach. Our kids didn't like the taste of the wine their faces were priceless. It was very well done Julie sang the first song and she has a beautiful voice after the sermom we all sang the closing hym and went to the park. It was so much fun we had a picnic and the kids played on the playground. Even the babies enjoyed themselves it was so cute when they played together I swear babies have their own secret language. There was even a man there that made his own instruments and he lets local musicians play them, the instruments were beautifully made I can't wait to get my guitar and strum a bit with them. (That is whenever I get my guitar). We are going back next week if it is nice outside. That's it for now.

Brandy

No Longer Do We Have To Hide

This is a poem I wrote for my family I hope they love it as much as I love them. (yeah it's a bit lame but hey i suck at poetry lol)

No longer do we have to hide.
No more do we have to remain in the shadows.
We can be more proud then we were before.
We are polygamists and yes we do exist.
No longer is it a problem to hug and kiss and to show our love.
They may be out but they are not down.
WE ARE PROUD!!!
WE ARE A FAMILY!!!!
So shall it forever remain.

Hey everyone,

Hope you enjoyed this little poem.

Thanks for reading, B

Yet Another Change

Hey,

Well hubby and A are getting excommunicated someone at church outed us as polygamists. We knew this was going to happen, A and I and hubby talked about since I came into the family. We just hoped it wouldn't be this soon. Poor hubby and A are taking it really hard, J was getting ready to be baptised Saturday she is still going to but somewhere else possibly Pewaukee Lake not sure yet. It is up to her. We all hope God can give us guidance and help us through this. That's it for now but I'll keep you all posted.

B

Just Another Day

Hey B here,

It's just been another day. We started a new schedule today everyone was up at 7 this morning total drag but we gotta get used to being on Tori's school schedule. I was so tired though my son had been up off and on last night he had gotten cold. We are all very worried about our DH he is still not working and he's still grieving over the fourth that we were supposed to have. He misses her so much and it kills me to see him that way. All we can do is let him have his space and pray he will eventually heal. I've never seen him so depressed. A was mad at me again today sometimes it feels like I can't do anything right. I apologized not much more I can do really other than try to do better. J is excited to have our daughter back home she missed her a lot and our daughter was so glad to be back. Sometimes I wish I were more like them but I can't change who I am I can't do more than my best and it feels like that isn't even enough most days. Oh well. Well that's it for now.

Later, B

Meh....Not Sure What to Title This One (oh wait guess that's the title haha)

Hey B here,

Well it's been one rough week. We had a bit of a squabble but everything is fine now. I just called MATC today and found I can't start school until January I missed the deadline for registration I still need my high school transcript such a pain. A, J, and I dyed our hair last night. A dyed hers eggplant, J dyed hers red, and I dyed mine raven black and gonna put red or blue highlights in when we can afford them. Our hubby just applied for a new job out at Quad Graphics and at Johnsonville Brats, J didn't get the job at Quad so the Lord answered her prayers because she was very unsure whether to take the job or not. She applied for a job at a school to be an interpreter for a deaf kid. It's looking good. I applied at Boston Market. Yeah I know this is so not about polygamy but it is an update on my family. Our two year old girl goes to see her other dad tomorrow and poor J is very nervous and doesn't know what she'll do without her this weekend. We are all going to try to help her get through it as well as we can. I am worried about my dad he still hasn't found a job and is very depressed I miss him terribly, going to try to convince him to move here so I can make sure he's ok and so he can see his grandson on a regular basis. Well that about does it for now.

Later, B

Kids. A Poem.

Kids

We love them we spoil them.
They drive us nuts but then they give us the puppy dog eyes.
Don't be mad mommy I'm sowwie.
My hearts melts at the cute little pleading voices.
When mommy's eyes are smiling they stole our hearts away.
Crying, fussing, snotty noses.
To me they're just like little roses.
Mommy, I love you, mommy read to me.
Cuddles, hugs, kisses, wishes.
Kids, what would we do without them?

Dedicated to my five kids. I love them all and wouldn't trade them for the world.

Hey everyone B here again,

It's been a good few days A has a bit of heartburn but she's feeling better. J is going to make us all cute headscarves and dresses when she gets her sewing machine. She also has an interview at Quad Graphics we are all hoping it goes well. I am still waiting to hear from the newspaper but I'm going to try at Quad as well put my foot in the door. College is fast approaching and I am so excited I can barely sit still. The kids are doing great J is starting her daughter potty training she's getting better at telling us when she has to potty and sits for a bit before she gets off the potty chair. A's lil ones are doing great as well the oldest one is talking more and her baby is trying to crawl. My lil one is trying to crawl as well and getting more teeth but no telling when they'll cut through. Our hubby still isn't working but he's looking and trying to be useful poor guy needs to work he gets depressed when he doesn't. Keep him in your prayers please he lost a very dear friend not long ago to a car wreck and it's hit him rather hard. Pray he feels better soon. He is also looking to add a new wife to our family next year not sure how that's going to work. A isn't too keen on it but hey a lot can change in a year. Well that's it for now.

B

B here with another update.

Now I am sick and so is J's daughter poor thing, I've got some kind of upper respiratory infection can't quit coughing and it's miserable. J still has her pneumonia but it's getting better. My son is teething and has a fever again and he was up all night again last night. We are all hoping the house gets healthy and stays healthy. Our hubby drove A nuts earlier so now she's upset and probably will be for a while. All that aside I start school again soon and I am so excited can hardly wait and my son tried to crawl last night he got up on all fours and rocked for a few minutes then promptly planted his face back down into the carpet it was cute and funny. His face was like how'd I do that. Anyways, that's it for now. Later.

B

Another Day In My Life

Hey all,

B here giving an update. My son was up last night A had volunteered to watch him since it was my morning with our husband. I feel terrible neither J nor A got any sleep last night cuz of him. J had to go to the ER this morning cuz she had chest pains thank goodness it wasn't a heart attack nor a blood clot, it is Pneumonia (still not good but better than the other two). We all hope she gets better soon. Our husband is loving his third shift job but poor thing is so sleepy when he gets home. We all think he's adorable when he sleeps he looks so peaceful. That's it for now.

TTYL, B

My Poly Family

Hey,

I am B and I am the second wife in a modern poly family. It's fun but it also has it's trials mostly me as I am the youngest of three wives at a mere 21 years old. My first wife is A, she's the legal wife. Myself and our third wife J aren't legal. However we love our hubby very much. I know at time my sister wives want to kill me but most of the time we get along great. The age differences can grate on everyone's nerves but we all try out hardest to get along. I love them so very much though. Til next time bye.

B