Hey all,
A while ago I had found out I was pregnant now I am 37 weeks and almost done with the pregnancy. I am having a little girl and I'm so excited about it. I do have my worries but my dr. assures me everything is fine and she is positioned the way she's supposed to be for delivery. I am fully effaced and really ready to have her. I found my biological father and family and they're all excited that I'm having a baby and that TJ is here already. He brings them so much joy. Anyways, there is so much I want to say but I can't say it just now as I'm very emotional right now and could just start to cry at any moment, hormones are so much fun lol. Anyways, there are a lot of things I'm going through and a lot on my mind it's hard to voice them without sounding like I'm repeating myself which drives my family nuts. I'm staying as calm as I can TJ is so clingy lately he knows mommy's going through something big it's cute but at the same time really irritating. Now, for the reason I am even writing this. I am wondering why God blessed me with another child when my sister wives want more children more than anything in the world and unfortunately, they aren't able to have any right now. It saddens me that they try so hard and nothing comes of it. I am glad I got blessed with another child I try not to question anything God does but this is one thing I'm wondering about. If any of my readers have any ideas or advice please feel free to leave a comment or two. That's all for now. More later.
B.
Thursday, August 23, 2012
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Continuing my BDSM/Poly Blog
Hey All,
This is to continue my last post. The whole reason BDSM is legal is because of one thing it is considered a fetish. If it weren't a fetish I can just bet it would be illegal to. I had a rather crazy discussion with my mother about it and it didn't go as well as I wanted it to. I know I hurt feelings but I had been waiting to say what I said for three years. She gave me the opportunity by telling me she was moving in with her Master and his wife. Hello, sound familiar to anyone? It should because ya know what it's polygamy. Even if it's called BDSM it's still polygamy. Yes, I know it sounds exactly the same as my last post but as I said it's a continuation of the same post just what I couldn't write that evening because it didn't cross my mind until tonight. I love my poly family and it hurt that for three years my own mother condemned me and my husband and sister wives and then turns around and does it herself. We had a lenghty discussion and I am not certain she even got my point but if she did then good for her what's really annoying is even after I said all this she still cares more for her Master than she does for me we were having a civil conversation when she went quiet I asked her if she was busy and she said Master IMd me and I just had enough and said guess I'll let you go then and closed the chat. I hate that her stupid BDSM is constantly coming before me and her grandson but it's whatever she'll always be that way and I just have to deal with it. I love my mom to death but when she turns round and does this stuff it cuts me to the quick. It insults my husband and sister wives as well as our whole family. My marriage is sacred to me and my sisters and when people pull this it's nothing but hypocritical and I am so glad I got the chance to call my mom out after three years. Thanks for reading. As I said all comments good and bad are welcome.
TTFN. Ta Ta For Now.
This is to continue my last post. The whole reason BDSM is legal is because of one thing it is considered a fetish. If it weren't a fetish I can just bet it would be illegal to. I had a rather crazy discussion with my mother about it and it didn't go as well as I wanted it to. I know I hurt feelings but I had been waiting to say what I said for three years. She gave me the opportunity by telling me she was moving in with her Master and his wife. Hello, sound familiar to anyone? It should because ya know what it's polygamy. Even if it's called BDSM it's still polygamy. Yes, I know it sounds exactly the same as my last post but as I said it's a continuation of the same post just what I couldn't write that evening because it didn't cross my mind until tonight. I love my poly family and it hurt that for three years my own mother condemned me and my husband and sister wives and then turns around and does it herself. We had a lenghty discussion and I am not certain she even got my point but if she did then good for her what's really annoying is even after I said all this she still cares more for her Master than she does for me we were having a civil conversation when she went quiet I asked her if she was busy and she said Master IMd me and I just had enough and said guess I'll let you go then and closed the chat. I hate that her stupid BDSM is constantly coming before me and her grandson but it's whatever she'll always be that way and I just have to deal with it. I love my mom to death but when she turns round and does this stuff it cuts me to the quick. It insults my husband and sister wives as well as our whole family. My marriage is sacred to me and my sisters and when people pull this it's nothing but hypocritical and I am so glad I got the chance to call my mom out after three years. Thanks for reading. As I said all comments good and bad are welcome.
TTFN. Ta Ta For Now.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
BDSM and Polygamy. Why is one legal and the other not?
Hey me again. Disclaimer, this may piss a few people off sorry in advance.
Been a while hasn't it guess so anyway to my topic. I called this blog BDSM and Polygamy. Why is one illegal and the other not because most BDSM relationships are multiple slaves. I am in a Polygamist Marriage. The way I see it BDSM, unless Monogamous, is not much different. The only real difference is the fact that most Poly marriages have a religious ceremony a sealing or in my case a committment ceremony, though to me it is simply a marriage if not in the govt's eyes but in God's eyes. A Dom and their Subs have what's called a collaring ceremony, which in turn, is considered a committment of sorts. My lifestyle is just that, a committment to my sister wives and to my husband just as a slave is committed to his or her Dom. A Dom, unless in absolute control, such as in a Gorean relationship, has to ask his/her other subs if it is ok for them to bring another sub into the family circle. If you can't get along with a new sub why bring them in? A Poly marriage does that as well, a new wife can not be brought in without the agreed consent of the other wife or wives. My point is that even though they do have their differences a sub does freely give themselves to their Doms and I have freely given myself to Rich, Julie, and Ange. We are all committed to that person whether it's a husband or a Master/Dom. My points may not be valid but I figured I'd let my readers be the judges. I invite all comments good or bad to this and to all my posts, past, present, and future. Hope you enjoyed reading this blog tonight. Until, next time. TTFN, Ta Ta For Now.
Been a while hasn't it guess so anyway to my topic. I called this blog BDSM and Polygamy. Why is one illegal and the other not because most BDSM relationships are multiple slaves. I am in a Polygamist Marriage. The way I see it BDSM, unless Monogamous, is not much different. The only real difference is the fact that most Poly marriages have a religious ceremony a sealing or in my case a committment ceremony, though to me it is simply a marriage if not in the govt's eyes but in God's eyes. A Dom and their Subs have what's called a collaring ceremony, which in turn, is considered a committment of sorts. My lifestyle is just that, a committment to my sister wives and to my husband just as a slave is committed to his or her Dom. A Dom, unless in absolute control, such as in a Gorean relationship, has to ask his/her other subs if it is ok for them to bring another sub into the family circle. If you can't get along with a new sub why bring them in? A Poly marriage does that as well, a new wife can not be brought in without the agreed consent of the other wife or wives. My point is that even though they do have their differences a sub does freely give themselves to their Doms and I have freely given myself to Rich, Julie, and Ange. We are all committed to that person whether it's a husband or a Master/Dom. My points may not be valid but I figured I'd let my readers be the judges. I invite all comments good or bad to this and to all my posts, past, present, and future. Hope you enjoyed reading this blog tonight. Until, next time. TTFN, Ta Ta For Now.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
One long day
Hey All,
Yes, I called this a long day because it seemed like the day dragged on forever for some reason might be the fact I'm in a fog because of my allergies lol. Work seemed to drag on forever we were so slow today must have been because it was warm out and everyone was out getting ice cream or grilling. I had julie's delicious meatloaf for dinner. It was yummy. (props to my sis) Anyway, I had gotten so close to telling my manager what type of lifestyle I lived because me and my friends at work were talking about it but I lost my nerve she makes me so nervous sometimes. I'm sure she'll figure it out though. So my other manager was teasing me earlier introducing us all to the newbie that started work today she's awesome I'll look forward to more shifts with her. She's all laughs and it's something we could all use in the workplace, so I was getting ice for the machine and my manager said this is brandy she enjoys her job because I was laughing with my other co-workers and I'm like yep I love my job and he laughed and said see toldja. That got the newbie to laugh so she lightened up a bit first days are so nerve-wracking, funny thing was we ended riding the bus home together and chatting like we knew each other our whole lives. I may be in what people call a forbidden relationship but hey we all are in some way or another if our parents don't approve of who we are dating or married to. -Giggles- Anyway, I am just yammering on sorry if this entry bores you all. Take care TTFN.
B
Yes, I called this a long day because it seemed like the day dragged on forever for some reason might be the fact I'm in a fog because of my allergies lol. Work seemed to drag on forever we were so slow today must have been because it was warm out and everyone was out getting ice cream or grilling. I had julie's delicious meatloaf for dinner. It was yummy. (props to my sis) Anyway, I had gotten so close to telling my manager what type of lifestyle I lived because me and my friends at work were talking about it but I lost my nerve she makes me so nervous sometimes. I'm sure she'll figure it out though. So my other manager was teasing me earlier introducing us all to the newbie that started work today she's awesome I'll look forward to more shifts with her. She's all laughs and it's something we could all use in the workplace, so I was getting ice for the machine and my manager said this is brandy she enjoys her job because I was laughing with my other co-workers and I'm like yep I love my job and he laughed and said see toldja. That got the newbie to laugh so she lightened up a bit first days are so nerve-wracking, funny thing was we ended riding the bus home together and chatting like we knew each other our whole lives. I may be in what people call a forbidden relationship but hey we all are in some way or another if our parents don't approve of who we are dating or married to. -Giggles- Anyway, I am just yammering on sorry if this entry bores you all. Take care TTFN.
B
Friday, May 27, 2011
Just Another Post
Hey all,
I know it's been ages since I last wrote to you all. It's been a rough few weeks but it seems alright now. Been having issues with my losing patience with kids lately I am trying but it never seems to do any good. I always lose patience anyway, it's no wonder everyone thinks I am a bad mom. This morning I felt myself losing patience and was like yeah you two babies are going upstairs to play lemme get a bit more sleep and then we can play. It seemed to be alright for a while the babies settled and played for a bit then started to get bored so I went and got them and was fine the rest of the morning until my son kept hitting me on the head with his toys, I've got a few bruises on my cheek lol. Gotta love babies. As far as life with my poly family it seems ok now but a few weeks ago it seemed that no matter what I did I just made everyone angry. I tried my best and finally, it succeeded and everyone was alright again as alright as anyone can be crammed into a four bedroom house with five kids running around lol. Well, that's bout it aside from work and being mommy. I did meet a new friend at the bus stop and I am so excited to have a friend outside of work she's so nice and about my age she is also married with two kids around the same age as the preschoolers. I can't wait to hang with her again. That bout does it for now. TTFN my friends.
I know it's been ages since I last wrote to you all. It's been a rough few weeks but it seems alright now. Been having issues with my losing patience with kids lately I am trying but it never seems to do any good. I always lose patience anyway, it's no wonder everyone thinks I am a bad mom. This morning I felt myself losing patience and was like yeah you two babies are going upstairs to play lemme get a bit more sleep and then we can play. It seemed to be alright for a while the babies settled and played for a bit then started to get bored so I went and got them and was fine the rest of the morning until my son kept hitting me on the head with his toys, I've got a few bruises on my cheek lol. Gotta love babies. As far as life with my poly family it seems ok now but a few weeks ago it seemed that no matter what I did I just made everyone angry. I tried my best and finally, it succeeded and everyone was alright again as alright as anyone can be crammed into a four bedroom house with five kids running around lol. Well, that's bout it aside from work and being mommy. I did meet a new friend at the bus stop and I am so excited to have a friend outside of work she's so nice and about my age she is also married with two kids around the same age as the preschoolers. I can't wait to hang with her again. That bout does it for now. TTFN my friends.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
YAY I REMEMBERED MY LOGIN FINALLY!!!
Hey everyone, So yeah it's been ages since I last posted I forgot my login but finally remembered it. Here's my update, work's been goin great. I have been working a lot and it's so fun I love my job. Good folks and good food what could be better. Well, I'll tell ya, my son can now walk and he is beginning to babble things that are beginning to sound more like words he's growing up so fast. Hubby got a new job and we're all so excited for him, sucks that it's third shift though but a job's a job. Sorry not much to write but I'll come up with more i promise. Ya'll Come Back Now Ya Hear? Cheers, B
Friday, October 1, 2010
Just another update
Hey everyone,
B here again been a while since I last wrote. I been busy lately with kids and randomness haha. So here's the update. Hubby has a new job and is loving it, J has one also and she also loves it. I am also going to start working on Monday, I got a crossing guard job. It isn't much but it's better than nothing and it is rather enjoyable I get to meet a lot of interesting people. It's definitely an adrenaline rush. Trying to figure out the best way to get kids across safely and running into the street with a red stop sign and people getting impatient and revving their engines like they're close to hitting you if you don't move soon. People ugh. I turned 22 sept. 29th and boy did we have fun my dad came to visit me it was great. Hubby turned 46 sept 28th. Our youngest daughter is turning three Oct. 31st so cool we get to celebrate Halloween and a birthday at the same time gonna be double the fun. No word yet on what we are going to do for her yet though. Hubby's celebration is this weekend on account of he had to work so we are celebrating this weekend. My son is crawling and even starting to pull himself up and so is A's youngest. They both babble so talking won't be too far now. I am looking forward to it but whoa will my life change I'll be chasing them all over the place. Take care everyone. I'll keep you all updated thanks for reading.
Later, B
B here again been a while since I last wrote. I been busy lately with kids and randomness haha. So here's the update. Hubby has a new job and is loving it, J has one also and she also loves it. I am also going to start working on Monday, I got a crossing guard job. It isn't much but it's better than nothing and it is rather enjoyable I get to meet a lot of interesting people. It's definitely an adrenaline rush. Trying to figure out the best way to get kids across safely and running into the street with a red stop sign and people getting impatient and revving their engines like they're close to hitting you if you don't move soon. People ugh. I turned 22 sept. 29th and boy did we have fun my dad came to visit me it was great. Hubby turned 46 sept 28th. Our youngest daughter is turning three Oct. 31st so cool we get to celebrate Halloween and a birthday at the same time gonna be double the fun. No word yet on what we are going to do for her yet though. Hubby's celebration is this weekend on account of he had to work so we are celebrating this weekend. My son is crawling and even starting to pull himself up and so is A's youngest. They both babble so talking won't be too far now. I am looking forward to it but whoa will my life change I'll be chasing them all over the place. Take care everyone. I'll keep you all updated thanks for reading.
Later, B
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